I’m back! It’s been a very busy last few weeks. I took two midterm exams within a few weeks of each other (accounting and econ! eek!). But I’ve had a number of big events and a lot going on in this crazy life of mine.
First off, if you follow me on Twitter, you already know that my new niece arrived last week. She came naturally with very few complications, which is almost a miracle, and she’s a very pretty, normal baby girl. Considering the number of babies that, under normal circumstances (and not being born to a complete mess like my sister) have major issues and have to stay in the hospital for months, that is just amazing. My sister is doing fine too, but now that she’s back on some of her stronger thyroid medication, it’s taking a lot out of her. Once I got word that the little one had arrived, I made plans to go down to the old home stead and spent the weekend there with my parents and to see the baby. Didn’t hurt that it was also Mother’s Day weekend, and we all had a nice dinner together on Sunday before I headed back home.
I definitely went shopping for baby and sister gifts. My older niece, who is just now a big sister at 10, needed some love and support, too, so I had stopped to get her some of her favorite treats so she wouldn’t feel left out with all the excitement going on around her. I hadn’t exactly planned to spend all weekend out and about, and spending money and time on my family, but that’s ok. To be honest, I don’t really care that my budget is a little awry because of this past weekend. I bought lunch for my mom and sister on Saturday, which put me over my fast food budget already. But I don’t regret that. The baby onesies and dress I got along with some body butter for my sister from Bath and Body Works? Also not regretted. I felt the need to be there but also to get useful things for my family. I can find room in my budget for that, and I feel like I should.
In other news, no, I did not get the job I interviewed for several weeks back. It took them over 4 weeks to tell me, which was a bit ridiculous. I actually took it very well, considering. Work is always stressful, but I’m handling it much better than I used to. And, I got great feedback from my interview. They would have taken me because of my skills and initiative, but they also found someone with several years’ experience. I don’t fault them one bit for that.
I’m ok with trying to be better at my job for now, and working my way up to the next opportunity that comes along. I’m even bringing in treats for my coworkers still. Not because I particularly love them dearly as people (because, let’s face it, in a stressful job not everyone gets along) but because it’s something small I can do to make things a bit better and cheerier. I’m ok with buying $5 in candy every few weeks or bringing in a batch of cookies, since it seems to make people laugh and smile when they should be yelling and crying.
And, ok, I’ll admit that I kind of love some of my coworkers. We’re all in it together, and without some of them to support me through the past year, I wouldn’t have made it as far as I have.
Despite all the stress and what should have been a big disappointment, I’m very content. BF thought something was wrong with me for a bit. I was feeling incredibly low while waiting to hear about the job, as well as worrying about my sister’s condition. It’s like I was holding my breath for a long, long time, and then I got to take a deep, cool breath. The relief I feel is amazing I feel like I can get back to normal. Or at least a little more zen for now, which is awesome for me.